My boyfriend and I were together for 5 years until he cheated on me. During the five years he seemed so in love with me and around me that at times i felt like i needed space away from him. He started talking about marriage since we were 17 but i always told him to focus on school so we can prepare for our future. He never seemed focus on school but I needed security and stability for the future, therefore we broke up many times during our relationship but he would always come back and it seemed like he couldn’t live without me.
After he met that girl, he became a completely different person. Very
conceited, into his looks, going out all the time, simply wild and crazy and just the complete opposite of what he was. I felt so betrayed.
This was a year ago. I forgave him, took him back. He expressed that he was very apologetic, he felt guilty. But the relationship was no longer the same. He was acting like if i said one thing wrong he would leave me. for some reason I was afraid of him leaving because he was my best friend. My emotional bank, my emotional balance. Without him, i couldn’t handle my emotions.
Anyway, I recently found out that he’s still cheating on me, with multiple woman now. How does one go from being so in love for so many years to not caring at all? Does he feel any remorse for what he is doing to me? We were together for 6 years, we were each other first everything, how can he treat me like any random girl? Does he feel bad for doing this?